Am I Wrong for Feeling Like This?

Have you ever tried being so interested in something that you forgot you don’t actually want it?

About 1.5 years ago I joined UCN here in Denmark to study multimedia design. I’ve been so fanatic about being the best possible multimedia designer. So fanatic that I’ve realized that it’s not what I want to do anyway.

When studying multimedia design you can go one of two ways: UI/UX or front-end development. Either you’re researching and designing, or your coding websites and apps. It’s either one or the other.

We do learn bits of other professions, e.g. video, infographics, photoshop, etc. But its focus is on either the designer or front-end developer role.

Iโ€™ve Been on Autopilot for About 12 Months

During these past 12 months, I’ve been on some sort of autopilot setting. Looking back, I don’t remember exactly what we’ve actually done in school – and that’s a crazy feeling.

One project and exam after the other. COVID-19 and the whole lockdown situation have resulted in me wearing myself down. It feels like a lot of people have explored new opportunities and found new hobbies. And I’ve completely lost myself in trying to figure out what I want to do.

10-12 hours every day trying to build a business, while staying focused on school is tough. And working on Clickidy (my company) has made me realize that I want something different.

Am I Wrong for Feeling Like This?

This is what I wanted to talk about. As mentioned, I’ve been attending the school of multimedia design for about 1.5 years. For a long time, I thought I was going to be the ‘UX/UI’ mastermind.

I wanted to be creating beautiful interfaces for the future apps and websites of our world. But that’s not what I want to do.

My passion for writing has overtaken my love of web design. I still like designing but I’m just not interested in websites and apps anymore. This is why I’m branding Clickidy and myself as a freelance designer and content writer from now on.

The new branding of my company – Clickidy.

Freelance designer is now graphic design, which is something I’ve done for a long time. But is it wrong of me to feel like this?

Not Doing It for the Grade

Someone asked me if I would recommend doing the multimedia design AP – and I didn’t know what to say. You do need to figure out what you want. I didn’t know what I wanted when I joined. This is most likely why I’m writing this post right now.

There are only 5 months left until I graduate. I’ve come to realize what I want to do and how I want to brand myself. I can’t let go of writing and it’s a perfect profession when you’re chasing a digital nomad lifestyle.

It sounds wrong but I’m not doing it for the grades anymore. I’ve always been good in school but have never been a fan of grades. Right now, I must admit that I’m only staying in school to get the paper saying I’m a multimedia designer.

So, is it wrong of me to feel like this? No. Most definitely not. I’m a firm believer in doing what feels right and not doing something because you have to. And as much as I’m in doubt about why I’m ‘here’ I owe a lot to this place.

If you can’t figure out your purpose, figure out your passion. For your passion will lead you right into your purpose

Bishop T.D. Jakes

They’ve made me realize that I should pursue my dream of being a freelancer. They’ve offered me 10 weeks of internship in my own company to scale the business. They’ve given me tools that I can use no matter what profession I end up working with. Also, I now have a network of future web designers and front-end developers – and you can’t put a price on that.

Wrapping It Up

The point of this post is to follow your dreams and do what you want to do. Not because someone else tells you what to do, but because you want to do it.

As I’m writing this there’s a direct connection to another post – Stop Worrying About Other Peopleโ€™s Opinion of You!. Realizing what you want to do with your life is a great achievement. I’m turning 30 this year and I’ve only just figured it out now.

I hope this motivated you to follow your dream. I haven’t had the most traditional career path but I’m still here. In six months I’m hoping to be a freelancer. My hope is to sit somewhere outside of Denmark writing more content for you guys.

Until then and into the future I’ll keep posting my thoughts and experiences on here. If you want to support me even more, you can connect with me on LinkedIn, follow me on Instagram, or like the Clickidy Facebook page. All support is much appreciated!

I’ll see you all in the next one. Take care,

Rasmus Bak

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