Hope you’re all well and safe.
Christmas is closing in and it gets colder and colder every day. Unlike a lot of people, I personally prefer the cold weather over hot.
I’ve never been good with hot weather despite the fact that I lived in Lisbon, Portugal for a while about 7 years back. Don’t ask how I survived, because I really don’t know. I guess you can get used to a lot of things when you have good people and amazing experiences around you.
Different this year…
This year it’s different. I guess 2020 is that kind of year where everything has to be different, so why not in regards to the weather as well.
The main difference to why is, once again, because of my back/neck injury. I realized a few weeks back that the cold isn’t good for me and my current physical condition. It makes sense, I guess. The cold weather makes us go “stiff” and all of a sudden you can feel every little thing in your body even more.
Every morning I wake up feeling even more stiff than the morning before. I can feel my pain more as my apartment is getting colder as well. I even forced myself to purchase a heat blanket for when my back is killing me.
Christmas is coming
If we look past all of this, I’m feeling a little bit better – mentally. I don’t know if it’s because of Christmas or what, but I don’t feel as bad as I did just a month ago.
I still have my down moments which I’m trying to get control over, but it’s a lot of work. I hope that when Christmas comes a little closer and I get to be with my family more that it will get better.
I usually don’t care too much about Christmas, but I can feel that I need to care this year. It’s been a long year with a lot of downs and it’s important for me (and you) to appreciate even the smallest things in life.
I’ve been told, that I should start writing a diary about my mental and physical health since the accident.
I quickly realized that I’ve actually done that quite a lot in here. I know, previously I’ve talked a lot about my travels and other “fun” stuff. But, when I named it Journeys With Junior; Every Day Thoughts and Struggles, I guess I deep down knew that I’d be talking about a lot more than the “fun” stuff.
I’ve mentioned this a lot of times. I love writing in here. I love writing in general and I love expressing my opinions wether it’s via music or writing a post on here. It feels so good to have a place to write down your thoughts and struggles – and I have a lot of those!
I hope I get through this winter without feeling too depressed. I’ve had enough of feeling down, but it’s so hard to get up from that hole I’ve been digging since February.
I have a rough plan of how to get out of it, but it’ll take time and I hope that the few important people I have around me will help me get through it. Only thing is that I have to tell them how I feel and I can’t. Hopefully, I won’t be pushing them away.
It’s hard to admit to other people that I need some time to get through some stuff – but I guess I have to share it with them for them to actually know how I feel. Maybe, Christmas is the perfect time to share – we’ll have to see.
Guys, thanks a lot for checking in. I’ll try to stop writing only about these things and find some fun stuff to write about.
Thanks for being here and showing your support.