So, I’ve almost been in Dublin for 8 months now (in 3 days) and yesterday it struck me how much I’ve changed since I came here from Denmark – mentally.
In the beginning it was very much about making everybody like me. I’ve always been the guy that most people like and didn’t really take serious and I guess my mentality changed, stayed, and followed that direction too.
Over the last months, I’ve been trying to look for new challenges in my life – within many different areas. During this process, I’ve been more about me, myself and I and really focused on what would be good for me and not everyone else – like I used to.
I’ve really sat down and thought about what I wanted to do, what would make me happy and not what everybody else would want from me.
I guess it also grows on you the older you get – the, “I want to something for me”-feeling, you know? The never ending feeling of knowing what actually would make you happy, but never really do that thing or things. Sometimes it feels like a prison to me and hopefully everyone else too.
So, as I was really thinking about what I wanted to do, many thoughts came to my head; “Do I play this smart or dumb?”, “Am I in Dublin for me?”, “Would I rather be back in Denmark?”, “Am I doing what I want to do”, “If you could, would you make a change?”.
Some times you’ve gotta doubt yourself to really figure out what you want to do and to get to know yourself a little better. That is one of the things I’ve learned during the last months – not doubting in a bad way, just asking questions only I can answer. Not depending on anyone else opinion on me, my life and my choices.
I came to the conclusion, that right now, I’m in the right place in the world. Dublin, right now, is the city for me. But there are some changes I need to make to make this stay work out the way I want it to.
So, I guess I’m playing it smart. Listening to myself.